MERiE-isms

Caramel Macchiato and LDD

merie.clarete@gmail.com (MERiE) — Tue, 24 Nov 2009 16:34:00 +0000

*calming myself down*

YES I FINALLY GOT MY CLAIM STUB FOR PHILIPPINES-KOREA FRIENDSHIP FESTIVAL CONCERT THAT FEATURES SHINee!!! OMG!!! Here is the crazy fangirl:

Today's one rainy day. I got rained on, but didn't complain. I love the rain but just makes me question why when I'm at home, the weather's severely hot and when I go out, it rains on me. Psh. WHY?! Haha!

So I went to Manila. It was all nostalgic -- missing university days -- I passed by DLSU-M and saw these students. Life is so much different outside university student life. *sigh* I also went to Robinsons Place - Manila. I love the Midtown. And the usual me goes to Powerbooks to have a look at the books and whatnots. Didn't stay there for long as I had done what I'm supposed to do there which is to meet Nikka :)

After RP, I went to McDo-Lasalle. There was no change. Just the people in it. My sister and I shared fries and spaghetti.. Yummeh! And then I haz the claim stub! Wuhoo!

Happily stepped out of McDonald's -- I headed to ATC to stay at Starbucks. :) Julo was there too. And of course it wouldn't be complete without Oluj shots...

(left) the Starbucks afficionado (right) and the drink for the day: Hot Caramel Macchiato

(left) ugh look at the rained-and-smoked-on bangs trying hard to be kawaii
(right) this photo is a good photo of a me-in-Starbucks-look

1-2-3-whateverisms:

On my way to RP, I saw a neon lollipop, I so wanted to buy one but the store owner is nowhere to be found. Stealing is a crime! haha!
I also saw some really cool glasses but .. :( I do not have money to spend on those.. Urgh...
Tomorrow (Later) I shall go to Jabez and try my luck.. Weeee!
I need an intimate time with my Bible again. Tomorrow, yes?
I wanna watch NINJA ASSASSIN!!!
I now haz the New Moon soundtrack!
I saw a really cute Korean O__O

Waaaah!! FRIDAY , CCP, Festival HERE I COOOOOME!!! xD

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Now playing: Relient K - Over Thinking
via FoxyTunes

Weekend no.47

merie.clarete@gmail.com (MERiE) — Tue, 24 Nov 2009 14:52:00 +0000

Nov 21, 2009

The day thrilled up as soon as the sun had set. Movie date with Friday club feat. Armon.

So after Julio had SMS-ed us that there are available seats in Festival Mall, Julie, Nik, Armon and I had our final YES to see the New Moon movie which was actually long been scheduled -- a year ago. Just sad, other BERKS whom I greatly expect of didn't respond. Boo Y'ALL! Busy much eh? Anyways, the screening started 9:05PM. Uhmmm, I don't have much to tell about a lame-sleepy movie. As what I expected, the novel itself is not worthy of a movie and voila! I was right. I don't even know why others applauded when the credits were already being shown. And as I always say, don't judge a movie by its book is HIGHLY applicable. I swear I napped for a little less than 5 mins. Oh, some people shrieked that time Jacob removed his shirt. Whuuut? Just a few things I loved about the movie:

The audience's reaction to it
the OST
and that part when the Volturi was in it.

K, thanks.

So where will be the best place to chill and chat after going out from a movie house?? Starbucks!

(1)The Friday Club feat Armon (2)that Barista didn't even wrote my name on my Toffee Nut Latte, so I wrote it myself xD! (3)Every year Starbucks gives out planners if you have completed a certain no. of stickers which are earned through buying a Starbucks drink (4) Our orders all together in one tray

We talked about how lame the movie is, and... I can't remember all since 'twas really one random chat. So no matter how lame New Moon is, what's far more important is that I had the chance to go out and bond with my friends!

Nov 22, 2009

This is what I wore, Sunday. And I guess I should always wear a dress since I got lots of compliments! Ha! Kapal lang eh... That Sunday was one long Sunday. After attending the 2nd service, I had lunch and right after lunch I had a meeting then right after the meeting we had our monthly youth service then youth service was not done yet when I was called for another meeting >__>. Then I was kicked out, well not really, out of that meeting so I went back to the youth service. After the youth service we had some salu-salo cos Geli is now a licensed teacher. Wuhoo! Then after, we had some chats and humorous conversations then we went to Aaron's Mom's wake, then we went to visit Agullo residence and saw this turtle which I'm thinking of how to take it home.. hmmm...:

Wait i'm not yet done, then we had dinner at Aldea's residence. I was the last one to finish cos uhmm well I think I ate 4 servings. Eh, ang sarap ng adobo and fish eh!!! Uhmmm I got full that I looked like a butete, having a big tummy after eating.

Then I went home.

Weekend no. 47 is not lame HOORAY! Wonder how next weekend will turn out. Oh please, let me see the last fashion show!

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Now playing: Kutless - Tonight
via FoxyTunes

The David in Pacquiao

merie.clarete@gmail.com (MERiE) — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 12:29:00 +0000

Manny Pacquiao is someone really worthy to be labeled as Pinoy Pride. Let us set aside those controversies tagged along with his name. Thus I support what Pres. GMA awarded him -- the Sikatuna Award Rank of Datu -- just this afternoon. He is one true-blooded Pinoy not merely going up inside the rink and fighting for his label's sake nor for money but he's also fighting for and in-behalf of his beloved Philippines and its citizenry. No wonder his name is paired with Pambansang Kamao, Pound for Pound King, People's Champ, bayani among others.

Yes, truly his training, hard work, discipline and everything else coupled with what a good boxer must do helped him a lot in winning. But what I personally think that helped him the most in winning all his fights -- is his strong faith in His Creator. I admire his faith the most. Whenever I hear his speeches and interviews, he never forgets to say that the cause of his victory is God, ang Diyos niya. He always does the sign of the cross. He prays. He trusts God that He will help him win the fight. He does not just rely on his own strength but he relies to what God can do the most. This is also the greatest thing Aling/Mommy Dionisia imparted to his son.

Most of us are aware about the story of David and Goliath -- how a small person beat a giant one. Why? All because David believed that God is with Him. This is why I see a David in Pacquiao.

I personally like the things he said during the thanksgiving mass in Quiapo:

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Malakas ang loob ko, nagdasal ako tapos milyun-milyon na Pilipino ang nagdasal para sa akin. So bakit pa ako mag-aalinlangan? Bakit pa ako mangangamba? Bakit pa ako matatakot? Nandiyan ang Panginoon sa akin... (I'm confident. I prayed then millions of Filipinos prayed for me. So why do I have to be bothered? Why will I be afraid? Jesus is in me.)

I pray that everyone might get an inspiration from Pacquiao -- a person who really loves God and his country...

Frustrated Dream-Chaser

merie.clarete@gmail.com (MERiE) — Wed, 18 Nov 2009 14:57:00 +0000

I've been dreaming since I was little and it saddens me that the only dream I'm proud of as of now is being able to graduate from college and being a degree-holder. But... From a course I NEVER dreamed of. I will always regret that day I crossed out Clothing Technology as my course choice in UP Diliman. Regretted even more that I didn't made it to the BAA quota but passed the UPCAT accepted scores. "I should've been accepted in UP". Time passed by and through constant talking to my Potter, and musing and wandering a lot in the past months -- I know there's a purpose for having been able to graduate from BSC-Management of Financial Institutions from a prominent university, DLSU-M.

I also think "it might be too late" when I see younger people than me being able to do things they love doing and being recognized and swarmed with warm love and greetings and appreciation just because they did their best in their chosen endeavors. I pity myself at times. I get confuse and lost in the sea of anonymity. But age doesn't matter. It's never too late to go for what your passion is. And it takes just to be the real me to achieve it.

I am never as determined as before. I'll reach for this one dream. Never giving up, never letting go, never looking back to regrets but just moving forward towards that dream.

*will always stick to my Potter's promise

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
--Jeremiah 29:11

Struck, Pondered and Moving On...

merie.clarete@gmail.com (MERiE) — Mon, 16 Nov 2009 19:03:00 +0000

The aftermath of Passionista. Followed by 1 John 2:16. I was slapped. I woke up from a sad and bitter reality. I pondered. I'm now moving on. That's how I wanna show our love is mutual and irrevocable.

From now on...I’d take as many steps towards my dream in each tick of a second with each passing day…Never letting go…Making things finally happen…

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Now playing: Yellowcard - Fighting
via FoxyTunes

Lamest So Far

merie.clarete@gmail.com (MERiE) — Sat, 14 Nov 2009 13:58:00 +0000

This is my yearly birthday post.

Yes, as what you can read -- it's the lamest. I just feel sad that nothing special happened. Or maybe I was just used to surprises and celebrations the past 21 years. I was used to my Orig4 celebrating it with me -- but this year, it is totally different. SO DIFFERENT that my parents didn't even greet me on Merie-day. So different that I didn't even had a birthday cake. So different... That I just consoled myself that whatever happens for the rest of the week, it's part of my week-long celebration, yeah whatever. After all, I wished for something like this.

Sunday - Nov 8

I had a 'mini celebration' with just some of my churchmates after watching Paranormal Activity. Just a mini one -- little salu-salo and bonding moments talking about horror films to Pokemon characters to romance comedies to almost anything.

im not in it cos i took it

Monday - Nov 9 - the day itself...

Like what I've said, I seldom celebrate on this day. It's usually a 'normal day' when I just remember that at 4PM in 1987, I was born. Oh and I'm reminded -- this year is rather special 'in a way' because I was born on a Monday. And i should not forget the endless FB greetings and Tumblr greetings -- these jumpstarted my day actually. My SJF made it special.

Tuesday - Nov 10

I spent some time for myself. Strolled around the mall and bought some stuffs for no other than me. Of course time for myself would always include a stay in Powerbooks. Then I met Julo. We strolled like what always happen. Took photos, uhmmmm rather lame ones than we had in 2 years. We ate at McDo. And we chilled at Starbucks where we talked about our frustrations and dreams (clickable). This day somehow, took away the loneliness.

Wednesday - Nov 11

I invited Julo, Julie and Julio (btw I'm Jerie that night) to watch a 2012 screening in my church but there was a sudden change of plans and we ended up in ATC. Yes, again. We ate at Yellowcab (many thanks to Julie) then while we were eating Mariane came! Yay! I'm back to being Merie. We chatted of course and then we decided to chill at Starbucks. Toffee Nut Caramel Venti (many thanks to Julio) and Choco Peanut Butter Brownie (i love Mariane). Of course we talked about a lot of things yet again and silly gossips. Oh, you know FB stuffs?? Yes, that we talked about too. Beng was in the nearest McDo so we went there and we chatted. 'Twas fun.

Thursday - Nov 12

Thanks to late birthday greetings.

Friday - Nov 13

I guess this is my celebration. I was all alone. I went to ATC. I stayed in Powerbooks where I browsed magazines, read Intimate Encounters with God, Emails from God to Men, 101 Things You Need To Buy Before You Die and skimmed and scanned some other books. I got hungry and so I ate some Jollibee and Greenwhich meals. After which, I chill-ed on my own at Starbucks where I sketched, had completely reread It's Not About Me by Max Lucado, wrote, doodled -- I enjoyed this time for myself. I stayed until around 8:30PM and then took off.

Don't get me wrong. I may be saddened, but I am not completely ungrateful. I am blessed I've reached this age. I am grateful I still was able to do these things for my birthday when others let their birthdays pass without even eating. I am thankful I have these friends after all these years. I still breathe. I still can see. My heart keeps on beating. I can hear. I can feel. I live.

Of course, my POTTER is the reason why am I still alive and was able to still make use of my nostrils in getting and releasing air.

Dear Lord,
I may be saddened, but I thank You for all of these. I owe everything to You. I still pray that despite my shortcomings, use me (forever my prayer).
Amen.

Lag

merie.clarete@gmail.com (MERiE) — Thu, 12 Nov 2009 14:42:00 +0000

I'm lagging here. I'm more active in writing my daily musings in my LiveJournal and Tumblr (i'm welcome to friends and followers. js. haha!). I wanted to post my full Passionista blog and my yearly birthday post but I don't think I can anytime soon. *sigh* I also find it weird that my blogger friends have been lost somewhere. :( I feel like I'm all alone in here well except for my Shing, Tine (well, duuuuh? :P) and a few more others who I call are definitely the real bloggers and not just online posers.

Of frustrations and dreams...

It was one Tuesday night when two frustrated dreamers talked about what else -- their frustrations and dreams -- over a plate of peppermint chocolate cake and caramel frappuccino. A lot of confusion filled the little corner where they are seated. They found a lot of commonalities between them two. They shared their really little job experiences and how it was contrasting that they've graduated from courses and from prominent universities not really part of their passion. They are left-brained people who are up to now constantly trying their earnest chasing their dreams. Their future is of a blurry, but their dreams are so vivid. Maybe someday... No, they WOULD someday...

While i was walking along our street, I was talking to my Potter, “When? Will I forever long and be frustrated?”. I looked up to the sky, and saw the lovely heavenly bodies — clear sky, the stars are brightly shining. There was this brightest star, oh this is my star! I stared on it and thought, as long as I see you shining, I’m never giving up my dream. Right then and there, I saw a falling star, I smiled and thanked my Potter, and another falling star — my Potter loves me, He encourages me, He gives me hope…

Someday…

for the past 5 years...

merie.clarete@gmail.com (MERiE) — Sun, 08 Nov 2009 18:52:00 +0000

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Now playing: 에픽하이 (Epik High) - Rocksteady (Feat. Kero One, Dumbfoundead, MYK, Rakka (Dilated Peoples))
via FoxyTunes im bound to post my yearly birthday post soon...
what is in store for me?
Nov 9 already started great and even had a mini Nov 8 celebration (just like last year)..

60th post

merie.clarete@gmail.com (MERiE) — Wed, 04 Nov 2009 16:08:00 +0000

and I can't think of a good title...

Slowly, i am getting into my senses. I only need this one thing to complete my transformation. I've been pondering a lot lately. I don't sleep right away, I pray and think a lot but in the end entrust all unto my Potter.

Hello blogspot!!! Can you say something in here?? Ok thanks. :P

I was itching to write a new post cos I'm fresh from a successful event, yes the Passionista '09. But I'm waiting for the photos and i don't even know why out of at least 5 cameras of the media prod (DSLRs to mention), NOONE has uploaded yet. Fail. So I decided to have a brief post and just post another one when photos are up whenever it'd be available.

As I have said it was a HUGE SUCCESS all because and for HIM. I must say it is the best YOUTH ANNUAL our church HAD in 5 years :) All glory and gratefulness to Him! I must also admit that yes, we combined WORLDY things in this event but allowed the Word of God and the move of the Holy Spirit to awash ungodliness in us -- as what is according to our theme verse Titus 2:11-12

In this present age, say no to ungodliness and worldly passion.

The thought is, we must be more than just 'fashionistas'. We must have the passion -- passion for the souls, passion for serving Him, we must reflect the same passion Jesus has. Our opening no. is I can say the best too. We walked on the ramp and performed The Glory by Avalon after. Honestly, just during the rehearsals, I already cried practicing it. God is just so awesome! I wish I could share a video of our performance but it is another fail, noone recorded it!

Rev Reggie preached to us about how powerful our choice is. And the greatest choice the youths made that night -- the choice to accept Him, to offer our lives to Him and serve Him. Sa totoo lang, nabitin ako sa Word of God but still we were superbly blessed.

The rest of the night was plain bonding among the CGM chapters, some may have left earlier than the rest but we still had fun. We had the best icebreakers and the food is satisfying too! The annual ended up at around 12AM but we had more bonding after.

How GREAT did God move in this event? Despite the typhoon that day, they all came and got home safe!

On other note, I want these albums:

It's again November and hmmm i look forward to whatever i would write on my yearly birthday post.

I have been active everywhere in cyberspace and so i decided to delete some of my accounts. Gah, LJ, Tumblr, Plurk, Twitter, Multiply, Facebook, and Plurk are the top sites I visit.

I'll leave this video... I pray that you be blessed like how we were blessed by this song...

In the solitary moment of His birth on this barren dusty land, all of heaven kissed the face of the earth. With a miracle of love God became a man but He was sent away to draw His final breath when He was only thirty-three, and in the shame of dying a criminal's death He cleansed an angry world.

And in His suffering I see the glory of the blood, the beauty of the body that was broken for our forgiveness -- the glory of His perfect love is the heart of the story -- the glory of the blood.

Now I have tried to find salvation on my own in a search for something real but there's a guilty heart inside this flesh and bone fall upon His grace and I begin to feel the glory of the blood, the beauty of the body that was broken for our forgiveness -- the glory of His perfect love is the heart of the story -- the glory of the blood.

And when I close my eyes I can see Him hanging there! Oh the precious wounded Lamb of God all the majesty in this world cannot compare to the glory The beauty of the body the glory of the blood, the beauty of the body that was broken for our forgiveness -- the glory of His perfect love is the heart of the story -- the glory of the blood. But He was sent away to draw His final breath when He was only thirty-three .

-The Glory (Avalon)

Someday i'll walk along the aisle...

merie.clarete@gmail.com (MERiE) — Tue, 27 Oct 2009 15:20:00 +0000

The wedding photos and footage i have seen today make me wanna wear a lovely bridal gown and walk along the aisle…

I, wearing the white bridal gown
You, wearing the suit
Both of us walking in sync towards the stars and moon, I swear
No lies, no suspicion
My dearest prince, stay with me

my dear butterfly, i’ve been in this garden for so long, when will you land onto my palm?

Sing Marry U to me please...

I think you are my echo. When I first met you, I thought that it was as if all of the things I had shouted out into the world before knowing you had come back to me in your form. … All the hopes and wishes, dreams and happinesses that you have carried thus far, I’ll give to you. I love you.

If in the far-off future someone were to ask me what my life’s achievements were … I would say that it was the time I spent living by your side, spending forever with you, loving you and holding you.

Not totally OK but a LOT better now

merie.clarete@gmail.com (MERiE) — Mon, 26 Oct 2009 14:44:00 +0000

My dear blogspot, I missed you :)

Days had been crooked, I had the nastiest moods, i felt chaotic, my head was in a HUGE mess and now I'm feeling better :) Thank God.

So what keeps me busy??

It's on Friday already! Yay!!! Can't wait! But uh yeah I need self-preparations for this too...

Also, I'm hooked to the drama You're Beautiful. I love A.N.Jell :) It's like my favorite Asian dramas and Kpop fandomism (is there such word?? whatever) combined into one.

I want to clean up links. A lot has forgotten me or bubbly disappeared. I'm keeping those who are alive (ok i don't mean others as dead dead). :)

I haven't left the blogging world at all. I'm lurking in my LJ and my many tumblelogs :D

Who am I that you are mindful of me?

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Now playing: Youth Alive WA - God of miracles
via FoxyTunes

til i find myself again

merie.clarete@gmail.com (MERiE) — Sat, 05 Sep 2009 16:30:00 +0000

I'll be back here when I'm totally fine cos apparently I AM NOT.
I'm on other blogs where I am ranting most of the time. (hello LJ)
Sorry if i have to abandon you for now.
I'll be back, hopefully soon.

Something is definitely wrong with me.

I start by admitting this to myself.

I See the Sky

merie.clarete@gmail.com (MERiE) — Thu, 27 Aug 2009 13:01:00 +0000

The sky, the clouds, the rainbow, the stars ~ these are all that cheer me up and help me brighten my day when i'm in a gloomy mood. That photo on the left was shot by me (im no good at photography) yesterday while i'm walking along our street. I came from wandering around the city and i realized again and again and again that life is indeed wonderful. Yesterday is a bliss. Yes, I was alone wandering but I am free ~ that freedom God gave me. I've sort of pondered what have I been doing with the freedom God has granted ~ then too many realizations followed. But at the end of the day I'm grateful and happy.

In the past days being a "bum", a lot of queries ran through my mind that I got confused and even got depressed. But I know who's the answer and I just have to turn to Him. The rainbow has always been an epitome of hope for me, and as I saw one on the sky yesterday, I know that it's God's signal. I failed, I screwed, I stumbled. To be able to move forward, I must stand and act. I must not remain still. I must move on. I now know what I really want in life, but I'm still after His plans for me and I have long surrendered this life to Him.

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midnight fantasy

merie.clarete@gmail.com (MERiE) — Mon, 17 Aug 2009 12:57:00 +0000

Something's wrong with me but I'm doing the best that I can to get rid of the mess.

I'm bum for 3 weeks now. I stay at home 99% of the time. And I spend a lot of my time with my laptop and with the internet -- just like almost the same time of the year of 2008. I pray and is constantly talking to God to what His plans are for me. As for now, all I can see is a vast horizon. I feel like I'm riding a car, heavy rain pouring outside and my view isn't clear. I need the sun, I need God to tell me, and I need me to hear Him.

I leave it up to Him. His plans are way better than mine.

Anyway, the past 2 weeks have been FUN. Well, ~~except for that one day that I wasn't able to spend time with my friends in Batangas.~~ I feel like I'm a 16 year old, my parents not allowing me to go.

Tuesday (Aug 11)...

a friend gave me a G.I. Joe movie treat. (Thanks, Eo!) I find the movie good and I liked it better than Transformers2. Channing Tatum and Storm Shadow just made the movie even better. 0_O Also, while watching, I sort of thought of dying my hair blonde. Lol. It was just a funny random thought, just wondered how different will I look just like Sienna Miller going from blonde to black, so thought of the other way around.

Also, last week, I have been going back and forth at Eastwood City, that was from Tuesday to Thursday, toook some exam and attended interviews. Thursday, I was really surprised that it was a panel interview, good thing one interviewer is uhm, looks interesting. Lol.

Saturday (Aug 15)...

I went out with my best-est friends. Beng want us to formally meet Jep, her suitor and he seems nice. We chill-ed at Starbucks near Ruins, one of our fave hangout place. The four of us were complete! Unfortunately, I don't have a photo. Darn. Something has changed and I guess it would never be the way it used to be.

Sunday (Aug 16)...

got my weekly dose of praising and worshiping my Creator. Some longing...

and apart from attending church service, I went to Ramon's thanksgiving celebration because he passed the nursing board exam, he's now a R.N. I was also able to meet and bond with other high school friends. Oh those were the days. We felt old conversing about work/job stuffs. Ugh. Oh I want to steal the chocolate fountain.

I have been dwelling much on Tumb lr lately and I'm blessed I was able to meet new friends -- 1 unnie (older sister), oh hi Jessi, and 14 dongsaengs (sibs younger than me), hello everyone, shouts out to Ade and Ashlii! They're really fun to talk, to scream, to converse, to fangirl with. They are lovable crazy people. I'm so thankful I met them all!

...from as simple as “i feel sleepy” to “i feel lonely”. it’s like we’re really one family. we are bonded...

...i feel really blessed that i have these persons i call dongsaengs and unnie, persons whom i can share my thoughts with and pass on my craziness, and will not judge me....
this group has really gave me joy, brought real joy into my heart, and is still giving me my daily doses of haengbok.

and i will treasure this, surely treasure this…

-part of a blog entry from MidnightFantasy12

i'm currently thinking of how will I get the SOFF book, Story of Four Flowers photobook, (thanks again to AllKPop) it's bound to be released on September 5 in Korea and Japan only. How the how can I have one? Lee Min Ho and 168 pages and photobook, and Korea's sites and views and Kim Hyung Joon and Kim Bum and Kim Jun, aiiish! I WANT!

...the time without you in my life was full of darkness
But ever since I've met you, my life's been like a dream
-Miracle, Super Junior

Define Haengbok :)

merie.clarete@gmail.com (MERiE) — Fri, 07 Aug 2009 11:59:00 +0000

Lalalala.

No I won't blog about Eunhyuk's lovable dance moves. Just posting. Haha!

But this --> Can't help but post this. I. CAN'T. FRIGGIN'. WAIT!!! Haha. An avid reader of my blog would know that two of my fave TV series-es, are It Started With A Kiss & its sequel They Kiss Again. It's an adaptation of the manga Itazura na Kiss (Mischievous Kiss). I have watched the anime version itself, and of course the Taiwanese TV series. I love the plot no matter how foolish it may seem :) Jiang Zhi Shu and Yuan Xiang Qin (Kotoko Aihara and Naoki Irie in the Itazura na Kiss manga/anime) are just so cute. And up until now, I'm listening to its OST. Haha! Anyway, moving on, I have read from this site (AllKPop rocks, haha!), that there would be a Korean remake of Itazura na Kiss!!! Group Eight bought the rights and this is the same company who bought the rights of Hanayori Dango, yes, the one responsible for Boys Over Flowers as well, which made me giddy more as we all know how successful their version was. My anticipation is heightened even more as according to the article I've just read, they are thinking of putting a new ending. FYI, the manga is unfinished as the author died unexpectedly, the reason why They Kiss Again is somehow "bitin". So, yes, there I JUST CAN'T WAIT, even if it would take me a year of waiting :) *insert a dancing Merie here* lol.

On other note, I would also want to blog about my weird dream last night. I was a runaway bride. Oh yes. W.E.I.R.D. I can vividly remember the "cast of characters" and yes, even the groom. I won't mention names as I do believe that dreams are sometimes caused by repressed memories. So, I'm shutting my mouth. But I guess, I can find a logic -- maybe it was caused by my being able to watch the "abangan" part of two TV series. In Love or Bread (starring ArJoe), Lalaine (Ariel Lin), ran away from the wedding, and in Boys Over Flowers, Jae Kyung opposed the wedding right before the wedding ceremonies. There there.

And also I can't wait for the upcoming Inkigayo and Music Core.

part of Haengbok's MV, one of my fave SuJu songs,
some call it gay-ish but they're really so cute forming the saranghe sign.. haha!

I wish my ever-strict Mom would allow me to go to tomorrow's outing. *crossing my fingers*

I want to hide under the sheets, stare at the ceiling, feel the wind, enjoy the rain...

Comeback

merie.clarete@gmail.com (MERiE) — Tue, 04 Aug 2009 12:19:00 +0000

I'm back complete with a new layie for my blog who just turned 1 last July! Happy 1-year http://msheng12-fruitcake.blogspot.com! (still missing my old blog though *sniff sniff*). Simple layie as I don't wanna spend hours tweaking. The header photos were taken by Oluj (my fave photographer) and I just simply edited it. Twas from our photoshoot last Saturday.

Again & again (& again & again... to the tune of 2PM's song..haha!), after more than a month, an update! Yipee yay!!

A LOT, LORS and LORS had happened from the last and before the last update. Since I have not updated formally for the month of June, allow me a brief run through of the happenings:

June..

(looks at my planner and journal...)

Oh, nothing really special except that I visited our province Bohol together with my family and of course had a blast. The highlights:

tried the new zipline (longest in the Philippines) @ E.A.T adventure park in Danao, Bohol. It was FUN!!! Indeed a wonderful experience!

(forgive my errr shrieking hahaha! I got a bit scared but was all worth it!

You should try it when you visit Bohol)

Lola's birthday celebration
Mini Clarete reunion @ Dumaluan beach

(Bohol pictures here)

July.

Fast forward to the end of July, I resigned from my very first work. That was 6 months of being an MPC Analyst at Rustan Commercial Corporation. I finally made up my mind -- i will follow what my heart truly desires (drama much haha!) and will enroll myself in a fashion school, but of course will not totally leave the corporate world as a lot of money was invested in my education (hello, DLSU-M tuition fee! haha!). Looking forward to studying again. :) I'll definitely miss my very first workstation, the family-aura-office and also the discount every time I purchase anything from Starbucks (oh goodbye RCC perks & privileges)! But more than these, I will surely miss my RCC family, my very first office family. As a despedida gift they gave me a bag plus farewell letters complete with photos of my Asian crushes haha! They absolutely know my obsession!

the farewell letters. and those are photos of Teukie and a topless Lee Min Ho! haha!

the bag they gave me.

My RCC Family

Just last night I had dinner with them @ Lutong Macau.

August...

The Filipinos are deeply saddened by President Cory's death. I was born under her presidency therefore I can say I'm a Cory Aquino baby? Haha! But seriously I admire her integrity, humility and most of all her deep faith in God. I salute her for all of these traits. May we, Filipinos, live by the examples she left us.

Anyway, on that same day Tita Cory died, I, Julo and Julie had nothing to do so we scheduled our photoshoot @ their condo. Here are some of my faves:

More photos @ Oluj's site

Another photo-filled entry. haha! As always, what's new with mSheng12. Now, will do one of the things I miss doing - bloghopping! :)

God Bless everyone!

Oh, pahabol!

Haha!

BRB

merie.clarete@gmail.com (MERiE) — Fri, 26 Jun 2009 05:04:00 +0000

How I miss blogging and reading other blogger's journals. It's been over a month since my last update. And when I'm definitely back, I'll make sure that I've been freed from slavery and torture.. nyahaha...

This site needs a major overhaul most especially, it'll already be celebrating it's anniversary. It's been a year, eh? And I miss yet again, yet again, yet again, yet again and again my previous blog. *sigh*

BRB.
SOON...

I miss y'all.

merie.clarete@gmail.com (MERiE) — Fri, 08 May 2009 07:44:00 +0000

Hello blog!!!

I’m once again writing an entry here at the office. Nothing much to do, so, here I am.

*sigh*

I miss everyone in the blogosphere. I can’t find time to bloghop, maybe that time could be when I already have no work or when there’d be one week no work! How I really wish.

I have been feeling ups and downs the past few days. Sometimes I wake up, I feel like crying, sometimes I feel so jolly and hyper, but I’m ok. It’s just that maybe the sides of my bed shifts every time. Haha! Even with regards to working, sometimes, the thought of resigning suddenly pops in to my mind then I’d be thinking the things I could already do when I already have no work such as BLOGHOPPING, internet surfing, dvd marathon, tv series marathon, sleeping all day, and not waking up early and going home late because of work. But when I think of the pay, the friends-slash-officemates, I will suddenly shrug the thought of resigning out of my mind. Then I’d be pondering, maybe I’m still just in the process of adapting, adjusting.

So let’s now talk about the thoughts that keep me moving each day.

LEE MIN HO aka GU JUN PYO!!! I <3>Saranghaeyo Lee Min Ho!

While ABS-CBN is just about to air the Asian-renowned Boys Before Flowers/ Boys Over Flowers, I already have finished watching it. Thanks to Frances Lim (one of my dearest blogger friends) for introducing it to me way back the time when it was still showing in Korea. And yes, just like how much I’ve fallen for Dao Ming Se (played by Jerry Yan) in Meteor Garden, I have again fallen for Gu Jun Pyo! *sigh* *sigh* *sigh*

Among the three adaptations of the manga Hanayori Dango (though I haven’t much watched the JDorama version, but I definitely know who plays Dong Myu Ji, haha!), the Korean version is the one on top of my list. I. SO. LOVE. IT! I enjoyed watching every second of it. I even watched it twice. Nyahaha. The scenes, the cast, the locations, the script and the OST, I love em all! I especially like the song by SS501, not sure though if it’s I’m Stupid or Because I’m Stupid. No, I love the entire OST! Just like the Meteor Garden days when I memorized the songs I don’t even understand, I am also singing to the tune of BOF’s soundtrack in Korean! Hahaha! See I’m totally crazy.

And now, an update of my most most favorites:

Meteor Garden 1
It Started With A Kiss 1 & 2
BOYS BEFORE FLOWERS!!!

Next,

I’m so proud that I have bought my own Bible. I made use of the money I HAVE EARNED. I bought a Zondervan NASB compact reference Bible. I LOVE IT! It’s the first Bible I bought for myself from my earnings. I also plan to buy the princess Bible coloured lavender. Wee! I especially like my new Bible because of its cute look and its center reference which leads to other verses that can be helpful when I’m studying it. Wee!

Next,

I can’t wait for June. I shall visit one of my provinces – BOHOL! I miss everything there, from my relatives to the beaches to the surroundings to the errr everything! Haha! Can’t wait can’t wait.

Seems like I have said a lot already.

Anyonghikaseyo!

Bigger Picture

merie.clarete@gmail.com (MERiE) — Mon, 20 Apr 2009 04:57:00 +0000

It’s been a month. My blog seems like it’s in a hiatus, but truthfully, I’ve been checking on it regularly, hoping for blogger friends who still visit despite my no-time-to-visit-them plus no-net-connection-at-home. And I’m thankful that there are still who visit – true blogger friends indeed – special mention to my darling Shing! Wuhoo! I also do hope that my blogger friends haven’t erased or removed yet my link on their lists, but then again, I really can’t blame them. I wanna ‘go back’ to the cyberworld. I wanna share so many stuffs but as for now, I would just like to share this entry I made 2 months ago.

Look at the bigger picture.

This day didn’t start well. The usual problem that seems to be a rag at our family’s doorstep said hello again. Annoying. Distracting. Irritating. I questioned no one – why me? Why my family?

On a morning conversation that was supposed to cheer me up for the rest of the lame hours this day, I walked out, stepped out of the door, of the gate and into the village streets, walked out trying hard to prevent the tears from falling. My eyes were watery. If not because of the sunglasses I’m wearing, my eyes would have glistened as the sunshine beamed to my gloomy face. Gloomy face, covered eyes, dressed up pretty well and yet furious inside of me. I wanted to shout, to cry my loudest and get someone that can answer my burning queries. I know of only one, yet I didn’t bother turn to Him. I failed the test.

The feelings were contained in me. The ride to the office did no help. I tried to sleep which might aid me repress these feelings… to no avail.

I swiped my ID. My walking-out earlier led me to arriving at the office earlier than I wanted. I got a text from my Mom. This time, the tears I’ve been holding back broke out. I needed to get out of the office where no one possibly knows me.

I brought with me the hard to contain emotions thinking they might slip out of me as I walk and ponder.

The mobile phone in my pocket vibrated. Good one. It distracted me until I read what’s in the quote sent.

Life is totally twisted, things change and shit happens. So choose what makes
you happy or die in sadness tomorrow.

Yeah, right! Shit happens. And I mean S-H-I-T! But should I allow these shits to get deeper into my nerves and conceal the supposed glee? I don’t know.

As I walked, the buried happiness twitched inside of me. I looked around. Anything around me can be foundations of my happiness. I can actually find happiness everywhere, my supposed glee and gratefulness. I almost cried.

In front of me were two persons, a couple maybe. They made me realize that I am still in a position which others would prefer over where they’re in. I am actually still in good standing. I am blessed. The couple walked hand in hand. Typical couple, almost, until I looked down on their feet and saw a really soiled pair worn by the man – a pair of shoes good enough to protect his soles and to cover the upper part of the feet. Every time he steps, the sides of the shoes open. And yet when I saw his face, he’s smiling. He is not bothered by the thing I noticed -- unmindful of this little thing.

If I were in his shoes, and with this I may mean it in the literal sense, I would not dare step from the time I discovered my shoes are broken. Or did that man know from the start and yet didn’t allow it to bother him, he just went on and maybe thought, it is still possible to take steps with those pair and even smile like he’s wearing some new and branded pair. This hit me real hard. There I was, behind him, and in a better pair of shoes.

Maybe I should be like that man. Life goes on despite problems and difficulties. Maybe I should always look at the bigger picture; at the brighter side of the situation. If I would always look at that pity broken pair ONLY, I would feel pity for the man wearing it as well. But in a bigger picture, seeing the man smiling makes the picture better and brighter.

The default sentiment of life is actually bliss. It’s just a matter of perspective.

I went back to the office sort of relieved. I can wear a smile again, a half-smile maybe. I felt better. I mused. I am blessed regardless of everything negative around me. And I turned to the One I must have turned to right from the start. I asked for forgiveness and I thanked Him.

p.s.

Today is my Mom's Golden Birthday. Thank You Lord for giving her this life. :)

My Soul Sings...

merie.clarete@gmail.com (MERiE) — Sun, 22 Mar 2009 12:41:00 +0000

Whew! It’s Summer Cruise already! I can totally feel the heat! Summer heat equals summer fun under the sun! But… I’m still a gloomy rainy person J

The day after V-day and the days after that day, A LOT has happened! And I mean A LOT!!! A LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT! And I blame the clock for moving too fast, and giving me no time to update. Or is it my fault -- my fault that I lay on my bed as soon as I get home. I feel lazy to open the laptop and connect to the net. I just wanted to sleep – make that eat and sleep.

I’m missing ze BUM life. Oh yes. Haha. There there. I am actually already a member of the workforce. I started last January 29 which translates that I have been working for almost 2 months already. I enjoy the workplace and I feel blessed to be friends with my co-workers. They are so fun to be with that I’ve been out on Fridays with them. It’s fun coz we are in the same age bracket. I already got three pay slips! Nyahaha and I feel HAPPY that I’m already earning my moolah though I still cannot say that it’s “hard-earned” as of the moment.

As of the moment, I really want to tell a lot of things – like those days when I’m neither in the office nor in the house – when I’m with my friends. But if this would be the case, it would be like creating a blog entry daily rolled into one entry – that would be too long. You now know how I love writing long entries.

Let’s just feel the summer heat. I’m excited on the planned summer getaways. I really do hope I could come and all would push through.

I SO MISS the blogging world and I’m not typing this just for nothing I really do miss relating to each and everyone of my blogger friends. As in I SUPER MISS THEM!!! I’ll try my hardest to visit them all. They might be thinking I’m already 6 feet under. Nyahaha.

Oh as what I’ve mentioned in one of my previous entries, I WENT TO DELIRIOUS?’s FAREWELL TOUR at the Big dome… As for the moment (due to limited time) all I can say is IT WAS AWESOME. GOD IS SO AWESOME in their lives!

Errr… I need to catch up on everything I have in the net. Haha. I wasn’t even able to update my project365 for weeks now and ALSO my KP in PLURK (insert photo) reached 100 already! Wuhoo! Another accomplishment. I have 10 albums to upload in Multiply and Facebook. The Tumblr, the Twitter, the etc etc… And the TV seriessssss I’ve been watching. I already missed 3 eps of GG and I think5 eps of 90210 and A LOT of Chuck. Haha!

There there.

Ciao again.

yo!

merie.clarete@gmail.com (MERiE) — Sun, 08 Mar 2009 15:08:00 +0000

I'm still alive :)

Just an update , a mini update.

I'm saddened by Francis M.'s death.... :( Serious. I like his artistry. But he's in a better place now.
I'm currently enjoying where I am now. :)
I miss blogging.
I miss bloghopping.
I miss my blogger friends.

That's all.. haha!

you changed my life in a moment

merie.clarete@gmail.com (MERiE) — Sun, 15 Feb 2009 10:35:00 +0000

bwahahaha. The title is so cheesy. :) So there is this guy, err, ok make them two, who brighten my days! I get excited each time I wake up, looking forward to seeing them. Haha. In other words -- lumalandi! Hahaha! Basically these words are enough to sum up my Monday to Friday this week.

Moving on... (since im really not into telling stories mood)

A year ago, it was like this:

And for this year's Love Day aka S.A.D (Singles' Awareness Day)... let these photos tell the story :) (photosssssssssss)

what Kaye's bf gave her

got full at Dencio's

@ harbour square

the orig4 of course
lalalalove em

shots before Kaye took off for her darn duty

Starbucks of course -- vice na to.. haha!

and for the vanity..
(forgive me/us:))

more photos here and here

Love Day isn't just for lovers, loser-thinkers. Celebrating V-day with these bestest friends (on our 4th year already!) just keeps getting better. :) I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!

And oh, the day to commemorate the greatest love as what was mentioned in John 3:16:

for God so loVed the world
that He gAve
His onLy
begottEn
soN
That whoever
believes In Him
should Not perish,
but have Everlasting life.

not in hiatus just busy

merie.clarete@gmail.com (MERiE) — Sat, 07 Feb 2009 16:03:00 +0000

It's been 2 weeks, almost 2 weeks since my last update. This Blogspot of mine went down in my priority list. One top-lister is SLEEP and errr Plurk, I need to get a 100 karma asap so that I can leave it alone and not already mind when its karma points are going down. I can't even visit my pet, Furawe in Pet Society, can't even play Mafia and Fashion Wars. Haha! But I check on my Multiply, Twitter and Tumblr. Hahaha!

As rare as I update this blog is as often as I update my written journal. The everyday happenings, events, resents, raves, rants, imaginations, realizations, etc are written there, to the point that I'm bound to replace it soon.

So what has been happening? Aside from we celebrated Gil's debut at his crib & had fun with playing card games last Saturday and the tremendous work of the Holy Spirit during our Soaking last Sunday, everyday has been ordinary. Sleep, wake-up, eat, bla bla bla.

Happy 21st birthday Gil :)

one last group shot

what I wore last Sunday :)

So let me just blab about my WANTssssss…

I went to Rustan's and I saw another version of the mannequin I wanted -- it's black and white -- and I still want it!!! I asked whether it's for sale and it's not. Too bad.

I've been wanting to buy this pair since last month and i bought it a while ago. :)

I hope that the AWAKENING BOOK (click click) would be relased here in the Philippines . I would definitely buy that. It's a compilation of the 3000 photos taken from the Passion World Tour. Jeremy Cowart is really a genius photographer and it has refelctions from the anointed Louie Giglio! I seriously want this book!!! If I have to buy it in eBay or Amazon, I would. The waiting for the delivery would be the downside.

This coming March, I would also be attending Delirious?'s concert at the Big Dome. It would be their first and last concert. They popularized the songs I Could Sing of Your Love Forever, Did You Feel the Mountains Tremble and Majesty. :) I missed The Katina's concert and I don't want to miss this one, too.

I have talked to my parents and they already agreed that I may take Saturday classes. Except that I don't think I can because Saturday is my one and only rest day.

About random-ity….

The latest episode of Gossip Girl -- I was expecting something like what happened but I was still like this in the end :-O.

90210 -- I love Ade! And screw the Collins and that hospitalized girl! Haha!

And to the rest of my college barkada who just graduated -- CONGRATULATIONS!!! We are all now degree-holders. Haha!

I have been realizing some stuffs like Valentine's Day is near and that someone is so far. Haha. Eeeek! But I guess we'll stick to our traditional Hearts Day celebration -- me with the orig4 -- in its 4th year already :)

I hope I can bloghop. I'll try.

What I've been loooong waiting for

merie.clarete@gmail.com (MERiE) — Sun, 25 Jan 2009 13:32:00 +0000

Finally... Those things I've been looooonging, i've been long wanting and waiting for were finally granted! These are the good news for the first month of this year!

First off, after a year of 'untouchable hair' (yes, that long) I got my hair cut already! My hair is really 'choosy'. My crowning glory is pretty much sensitive to who touches it so I guess it found a new friend in Coke of Bench Fix salon (do I really have to mention her name and feel like i'm endorsing the salon? hahaha) Yessss I love her already! I only had 2 stylists and those 2 opted to do business abroad. The others who touched my hair after these 2 really made my hair catastrophic -- bad hair days! I'm exaggerating but but but I feel like they're not really taking good care of my hair. Also, I really don't like gays touching my hair.

BEFORE

AFTER

New look, aye?
buhbye stubborn split ends!!!

One random trivia, I NEVER went to the salon without my MOTHER. NEVER. I. just. can't. hahaha!

Last night, I went out and chill-ed with my bestest friends. Julo just passed his thesis and even got a 100 grade. Worthy of celebration, right? And I also have my own reason to celebrate.

Today, we had our youth service and the message was about STANDING for GOD. I was wow-ed by the youth's testimonies on how God sent them favors because they STOOD and is continually STANDING for Him. When you just do things according to His will, He will truly favor you and expose His mightiness and wonders. Overused may it seem but this is what Matthew 6:33 tells us. Put God first in everything You do, glorify Him in everything you do and you will be truly blessed.

Afterwhich we went to SC's birthday celebration! Yummeh food! I was touched by this kid, uh, well, he's already a youth now. He just turned 13 today and he requested his parents and grandma that he wanted the youth, us, to be his visitors because he already wanted to be part of our ministry. Aaaw. This is a person who is sort of handicapped and has a brain defect but despite all these, he has this thinking. He cried when we arrived, I just prevented my tears from falling as well. We have been praying for his complete healing and he has improvements. Praise God!

SC is the guy in blue (though the girl in blue is also celebrating her birthday)
SC's involuntary raised his left hand because it was triggered by his excitement

And as for the other good news... I'm still thinking whether I should say it here or not. Haha!

So how can I stay silent, when I hear You call my name, living in Your presence, I'll never be the same. I've been gound in You and now I'll sing out our truth.

wait, what?

merie.clarete@gmail.com (MERiE) — Thu, 22 Jan 2009 14:23:00 +0000

No no no! I'm not yet dead but i'm dead busy. I've been out most of the days since I last updated. Ahm ahm, the post before this, yes the one with the verse was just imported from my Multiply, yeah, the cross-post thing. So my last update was... wait, what? Jan 11, 2009! Good thing my personal written diary is up to date :D I've been lazy (admitted) to update this, thanks to Plurk and to Tumblr. Microblogging and easy-blogging! Haha!

I've been attending some job interviews and it was errr traumatic. Haha! And i'll stop here (about the interviews).

I definitely have some good news to relay the next update. (hmmm.. now i'm thinking if i should tell it here, since i dont want some persons to know about this, haha)

For now let me just share some random thoughts emitted by my almost-asleep brain cells:

One day after going to this job interview, while waiting for the next bus to arrive, there's this thrift shop so I looked for something unique, as always, and saw this AUDREY HEPBURN TEE!!! I bought it despite it looking so soiled which was i think caused by the air pollution along Taft.

I've been taking shots of myself before going out of the house. Haha!

Vain much??
More at http://dressupandshoot.tumblr.com

It's prom season once again, so i'd be sketching gown designs. Wee! (gimme time gimme time)

sketched this some months ago

How many times have I told myself and everyone that I want a mannequin?! And I want these:

don't you want one as well??

I'm back ShopStyle! Muhahaha! After months of abandoning you!

I've been out with my bestest friends last Saturday (011708). That was our first gala for this year!

i need some treatment for my hair!
look at the hair of these 2 friends, haha!

And I miss my blogger friends! I don't know what's up with them already! Imma bloghop tomorrow. I need to sleep already. :)

Ooops. Too many photos?? I just missed blogging. Haha!

And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.
-Romans 8:28