How I miss blogging and reading other blogger's journals. It's been over a month since my last update. And when I'm definitely back, I'll make sure that I've been freed from slavery and torture.. nyahaha...

This site needs a major overhaul most especially, it'll already be celebrating it's anniversary. It's been a year, eh? And I miss yet again, yet again, yet again, yet again and again my previous blog. *sigh*

It’s been a month. My blog seems like it’s in a hiatus, but truthfully, I’ve been checking on it regularly, hoping for blogger friends who still visit despite my no-time-to-visit-them plus no-net-connection-at-home. And I’m thankful that there are still who visit – true blogger friends indeed – special mention to my darling Shing! Wuhoo! I also do hope that my blogger friends haven’t erased or removed yet my link on their lists, but then again, I really can’t blame them. I wanna ‘go back’ to the cyberworld. I wanna share so many stuffs but as for now, I would just like to share this entry I made 2 months ago.


Look at the bigger picture.

This day didn’t start well. The usual problem that seems to be a rag at our family’s doorstep said hello again. Annoying. Distracting. Irritating. I questioned no one – why me? Why my family?

On a morning conversation that was supposed to cheer me up for the rest of the lame hours this day, I walked out, stepped out of the door, of the gate and into the village streets, walked out trying hard to prevent the tears from falling. My eyes were watery. If not because of the sunglasses I’m wearing, my eyes would have glistened as the sunshine beamed to my gloomy face. Gloomy face, covered eyes, dressed up pretty well and yet furious inside of me. I wanted to shout, to cry my loudest and get someone that can answer my burning queries. I know of only one, yet I didn’t bother turn to Him. I failed the test.

The feelings were contained in me. The ride to the office did no help. I tried to sleep which might aid me repress these feelings… to no avail.

I swiped my ID. My walking-out earlier led me to arriving at the office earlier than I wanted. I got a text from my Mom. This time, the tears I’ve been holding back broke out. I needed to get out of the office where no one possibly knows me.

I brought with me the hard to contain emotions thinking they might slip out of me as I walk and ponder.

The mobile phone in my pocket vibrated. Good one. It distracted me until I read what’s in the quote sent.

Life is totally twisted, things change and shit happens. So choose what makes
you happy or die in sadness tomorrow.

Yeah, right! Shit happens. And I mean S-H-I-T! But should I allow these shits to get deeper into my nerves and conceal the supposed glee? I don’t know.

As I walked, the buried happiness twitched inside of me. I looked around. Anything around me can be foundations of my happiness. I can actually find happiness everywhere, my supposed glee and gratefulness. I almost cried.

In front of me were two persons, a couple maybe. They made me realize that I am still in a position which others would prefer over where they’re in. I am actually still in good standing. I am blessed. The couple walked hand in hand. Typical couple, almost, until I looked down on their feet and saw a really soiled pair worn by the man – a pair of shoes good enough to protect his soles and to cover the upper part of the feet. Every time he steps, the sides of the shoes open. And yet when I saw his face, he’s smiling. He is not bothered by the thing I noticed -- unmindful of this little thing.

If I were in his shoes, and with this I may mean it in the literal sense, I would not dare step from the time I discovered my shoes are broken. Or did that man know from the start and yet didn’t allow it to bother him, he just went on and maybe thought, it is still possible to take steps with those pair and even smile like he’s wearing some new and branded pair. This hit me real hard. There I was, behind him, and in a better pair of shoes.

Maybe I should be like that man. Life goes on despite problems and difficulties. Maybe I should always look at the bigger picture; at the brighter side of the situation. If I would always look at that pity broken pair ONLY, I would feel pity for the man wearing it as well. But in a bigger picture, seeing the man smiling makes the picture better and brighter.

The default sentiment of life is actually bliss. It’s just a matter of perspective.

I went back to the office sort of relieved. I can wear a smile again, a half-smile maybe. I felt better. I mused. I am blessed regardless of everything negative around me. And I turned to the One I must have turned to right from the start. I asked for forgiveness and I thanked Him.

p.s.

Today is my Mom's Golden Birthday. Thank You Lord for giving her this life. :)

Whew! It’s Summer Cruise already! I can totally feel the heat! Summer heat equals summer fun under the sun! But… I’m still a gloomy rainy person J

The day after V-day and the days after that day, A LOT has happened! And I mean A LOT!!! A LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT! And I blame the clock for moving too fast, and giving me no time to update. Or is it my fault -- my fault that I lay on my bed as soon as I get home. I feel lazy to open the laptop and connect to the net. I just wanted to sleep – make that eat and sleep.

I’m missing ze BUM life. Oh yes. Haha. There there. I am actually already a member of the workforce. I started last January 29 which translates that I have been working for almost 2 months already. I enjoy the workplace and I feel blessed to be friends with my co-workers. They are so fun to be with that I’ve been out on Fridays with them. It’s fun coz we are in the same age bracket. I already got three pay slips! Nyahaha and I feel HAPPY that I’m already earning my moolah though I still cannot say that it’s “hard-earned” as of the moment.

As of the moment, I really want to tell a lot of things – like those days when I’m neither in the office nor in the house – when I’m with my friends. But if this would be the case, it would be like creating a blog entry daily rolled into one entry – that would be too long. You now know how I love writing long entries.

Let’s just feel the summer heat. I’m excited on the planned summer getaways. I really do hope I could come and all would push through.

I SO MISS the blogging world and I’m not typing this just for nothing I really do miss relating to each and everyone of my blogger friends. As in I SUPER MISS THEM!!! I’ll try my hardest to visit them all. They might be thinking I’m already 6 feet under. Nyahaha.

Oh as what I’ve mentioned in one of my previous entries, I WENT TO DELIRIOUS?’s FAREWELL TOUR at the Big dome… As for the moment (due to limited time) all I can say is IT WAS AWESOME. GOD IS SO AWESOME in their lives!

Errr… I need to catch up on everything I have in the net. Haha. I wasn’t even able to update my project365 for weeks now and ALSO my KP in PLURK (insert photo) reached 100 already! Wuhoo! Another accomplishment. I have 10 albums to upload in Multiply and Facebook. The Tumblr, the Twitter, the etc etc… And the TV seriessssss I’ve been watching. I already missed 3 eps of GG and I think5 eps of 90210 and A LOT of Chuck. Haha!

There there.


Ciao again.

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